Thanks for the 7 comments!
It's really amazing how 24 hours just zoom past like that… I’m already 23 years and 2 days old liao…
For some unknown reason, I can't read the comments posted to the previous entry even after I've clicked on the "7 comments" button multiple times. =P Thanks a lot for using your working time to copy them and email to me, BeliefInLife! =)
Anyway, I've just read them. Thanks a lot to all of you who have written in… I think I'm quite fine now. Just felt the sudden surge of sadness at that moment and that's why the previous entry was "born". Right now, I feel really encouraged and touched that I have such good friends around me. =) Rest assured that the happy and driven Kelvin will be back!
<Aki> Aiyoh, you dun need to apologise lah… I also dun expect my friends to be constantly by my side 24 hours a day, 7 days a week rite? =) It’s already very heartening to noe that I can approach you for help when I need it.
<Prozac> Thanks for your birthday wishes! Hope your phone is ok liao. Really was quite worried when you said on the train that the call function of that phone is not working anymore. =P Thanks also for asking the other med ppl to help me out in this matter. I really appreciate it… But I also understand it can be quite difficult for the Dean to make such a difficult decision. I’m prepared to wait! As long as I can return to med fac. =)
<Belief In Life> I agree with you that all the trials and tribulations in our lives dun just happen for nothing. There must be some lessons behind them which I must learn. I have indeed become a stronger person after all these unfortunate events.
Just before I sign off, I want to thank Eli, Carolyn, JW, JY, TS and SH for spending my birthday with me that night. Thanks for having dinner with me (really glad that even 6 of you could make it) and thanks also for the nydc cheesecake! I guess different people just have different priorities in life and prob the other 2 who can’t make it just felt that the priority isn't with us. Anyway, it was really great catching up with you guys and it was fun to just sit down and chat. Hope we can get to see each other more often! Let's continue to work towards the year-end trip to M'sia!
"生日快乐..." 我对自己说
Thanks Shir Lynn, Spinkypinkie, Von, MX, Bin, Greencraft, Ling, Diamondbutterfly, BeliefInLife and Aki for dropping me the birthday SMSes. I’m not trying to make anyone of you feel guilty or what… Just thought I should thank the 10 people above for taking the extra effort to punch the message in their handphones and then waste one of their SMSes to send it to me.
The past one year has indeed been a very trying time for me. Waves after waves of torment just kept hitting me and I have no doubt aged a lot emotionally. The thought of giving it all up was constantly at the back of my mind, and during the times when it did surface, I had to tire myself out to force it back in.
Nowadays, when I meet new people and have to introduce myself, I can only say I’m a “final year student in NUS”. Well, obviously the question that might follow would be, “Oh, which faculty?” Only then will I tell them I HAVE BEEN studying Medicine for the past 4 years.
But given the circumstances now, I’m really not sure if I’ll still be able to say this in future. I’m still in a quandary about what I should do. Then again, I realise I dun really have a choice, since the decision doesn’t lie with me. So much for saying that Singapore is a very gracious society. =P
Sometimes, I question myself about my existence in this world. How many useful things have I done so far? How many lives have I changed (for the better) so far? Why is it that so many of my friends ard me are already contributing to the society and earning money to help the family but I’m still wasting my family resources?
I dunno. Think I’ll still have to continue to deplete my family resources further for the years to come – to deal with the aftereffects of discontinuing medical school.
I dunno what else I can do, now that I can no longer have an M.B.B.S. degree.
I dunno how I’m going to pay off the loan with DBS.
I dunno how I’m going to tell MOH that I’ve left the medical faculty. And I dunno what they’ll make me do for breaking the bond (like it was my fault that I left med sch).
I dunno when I have to return to the Army to finish my NS. I dunno where they’re going to post me to, now that I’m no longer eligible for MOCC, and it’s been 4 years ever since I’ve touched a rifle.
I dunno I dunno.
It hasn’t been easy to walk through this one year, but thank God I have been blessed with many supportive relatives and friends. Every year this time, it is an opportunity for me to offer my thanks and apologies to these very special people.
Diamondbutterfly, Shir Lynn, Von, Ling, Bin, Pin and President
Thanks for being such wonderful CG mates for the past 2 years. We had our fair share of bitter times no doubt, but I’m sure the happy moments we’ve also had would wash the memories of the bad ones away. =) A pity I won’t be able to finish the final lap with you guys anymore. But nevertheless, just hope all of you will 加油 and graduate in Jun next year. Do let me noe if I can help in your revision in any way, be it pretending to be the examiner to ‘grill’ you guys or pretending to be the patient for you guys to clerk. =)
Thanks also for the encouragement when you guys heard that I’ll be stopping school for an extended period of time. It’s always very heartwarming to noe that there are people behind you and constantly supporting you. Thanks also to Ling for painstakingly helping me collect the notes for the M5 postings I missed. Really appreciate it. =)
Special thanks to Diamondbutterfly, Ling (especially), Bin and Pin for the innumerable lifts I’ve got from you guys.
Sorry for any unhappy moments that I’ve caused during these 2 years (I’m sure I was responsible for a few of them. =P)… I honestly mean no harm, so dun take it to heart ok? =) Sorry also for not being able to say much about my condition whenever you guys express concern about it (This goes out to all the others who have asked me too.). I just felt it might be better to say when the entire episode has come to an end… Soon…
Prozac, Archmyst, Mark and MX
Thanks to you guys for the great times we spent at Settlers! It was really fun playing Betrayal and the other nonsense games (Jungle Speed!! I’m the Boss!!) with you all. Thanks also for asking me out for supper (with Eddy that night). And of cos, special thanks to MX and Mark for driving us around. So paiseh, I seriously feel like a ‘car leech’ when I’m typing this.
And of cos, thanks also for the concern when you guys heard that I’ll be stopping school. I’m truly very touched. =)
Spinkypinkie, Aki, BeliefInLife, Greencraft, Little Miss Dreamer, Prozac and GZai
I’ve left you guys to the last, but that doesn’t mean you all are not important to me ok? =) Anyway, thanks for all the mad ktv sessions and other gatherings we’ve had for the past year! It is not easy to have such lasting friendships (For some of us, it’s a decade already!) and I’ll definitely treasure them. Special thanks also to Prozac for ferrying us ard sometimes. [Remember I'm a 'car leech'? =P]
Sorry if I’ve offended any of you guys in any way during the past one year. Like I said, I mean no harm so dun take it to heart ok? =)
I guess our friendships have reached such a stage where a lot of things are just 尽在不言中… =)
I have left my church friends and family members out since they dun read my blog anyway. Think some of them dun even noe I have a blog. But nonetheless, I must say they have also been a very helpful bunch of people who will be there for me whenever I need it.
Looking at the time, just nice, I’ve turned 23… My birthday wish is to return to Med Fac asap! Is that too difficult to achieve? Is that too expensive a ‘present’ for me?
Be With Me
Is it possible to learn a new language when you are blind and deaf at the same time? Apparently it's possible. Amazing.
Went to watch this highly inspiring movie with von and ws. Throughout the show, there were limited conversations. Just scenes and scenes. Being so tired after a week of paeds posting, i was thinking: Sure sleep, sian. BUT, it was such a great movie that i actually stayed awake and enjoyed the show more than those comedies around.
It was quite a sad show. Shall not reveal too much just in case there are ppl around who wants to watch! =)
I tried to compare Eric Khoo's movie with Jack Neo's movie. Somehow i feel that they are poles apart. The style, quality and class. Read the review of One More Chance. Apparently, it's quite poorly rated. Well, i feel that his previous movies were overrated too. maybe except for HomeRun. "but it's adapted from the Iranian movie" heh
Was at Orchard yest near the MRT station and i saw many policemen there. Sigh. Really wonder why there are so many psychotic ppl ard. "Read the papers if u don't know wat i'm talking abt"
Project superstar has ended for more than a week. Feeling rather bored coz no more nice TV shows to watch "ok, i know LOST is a good show!", the new show looking for actors and actresses, hope it's good.
I was wondering, why don't i have a friend who took part in the competition and reached the finals, so that i can go there and cheer and have a superstar friend? Hee. that will be interesting. so friends ard me. Take part in such competitions!
Actually i have a superstar friend. Our very own rock band "ronin", one of them is my good friend! read Fri's Today! Their CD also by Universal Music, like Kelly. heh
bye
The End
It was a great finale. Really enjoyed it. These are my comments! Feel free to read but don't scold me! Heh
The score by the judges 4-1. If there's draw too, i think it should be:
Round 1: Draw
Round 2: Kelvin
Round 3: Kelly
Round 4: Draw
Round 5: Kelly
Well, i was really touched with kelly's last song. Really Superb! and guess wat, she sang so well that i actually sent a sms to support her (Although i know kelvin will definitely win before the competition even started) Well, i have never supported anyone in this kind of show or competition. And the interesting thing was von also voted. Haha. We promised each other that we will not vote no matter what. I guessed we were both super touched by her last song.
Really felt she put up a great fight, despite knowing that her chances of winning are low. I was very impressed by the stage presence and her costumes. Super nice (really made her very pretty). Her singing was quite good too. Beginning was shaky but from round 3 onwards, she was flying. Love the duet bet her and JJ. Heh. and guess wat, her beats were good! she wasn't off-key (maybe a bit in round 2)
As for kelvin, i spoke to my bro and he told me kelvin is those kind of singer who will sing songs that can touch many ppl. Well i agree to a certain extent. He's definitely a very good singer and after the first round, i thought he sang super well, i thought kelly had no chance. But at round 3, his duet was poor. This shows that he really can only sing certain songs only. From my experience, this kind of singer probably won't last long. (well my fav singer can only sing songs that touch ppl, she's gone after 3 yrs..sad)
On the whole, everything's come to an end. Wish them all the best. Play music is superb in promoting albums. If you guys are TV freaks, you will always hear them promoting the same old album, "ou de yang" "cai chun jia" and "lao shu ai da mi". Haha
As for universal music, a superb recording company. I think it's better than Play Music so let's see what happens in the future.
Seems like the voting is useless coz everyone seems to get a contract. JY got one too. Haha.
One last comment, shi xinhui looks hot ah. Haha. This shows that with a makeover, anything can happen. Heh. Btw, she was already pretty to begin with. Maybe pinakin should try to prove my hypothesis. Heh
Best Wishes
