Some random thoughts...
Sometimes I wonder the people whom I call my "friends" are really who they are...A few nights ago, I received an SMS from a fellow blogger. Due to something which I've written, she thought I had been given the green light to return to medical school to finish my final year (and then graduate subsequently). Well, even though she was mistaken, this SMS somehow still touched my heart. I've known long ago that this true friend of mine is a really genuine person and she sincerely does care for her friends. And I also know she's one of those who hopes that I can go back to school one day. So... Thanks very much for dropping that SMS yah... You noe who you are... So dun need to reply... =)
That aside, I've also got to noe something really quite terrible and amoral about another person whom I've known for years, or at least, I THOUGHT I had known for years. I dun think it's time for me to blog about it yet. So for you eager (Read: kaypoh) ones, patience ah... =P
Come to think of it, this person actually has been very nice to me... When I was STILL in medical school at least. Now that I'm no longer there, things have started to become different... IT is no longer as friendly as before. IT sometimes can't really be bothered to answer questions when I ask. And IT gets frustrated easily, even with the smallest comment I make. Why this drastic change in attitude?? In retrospect, have I been used as a stepping stone for IT to achieve ITs aims? Or am I just some easy-to-dupe substitute to make sure that IT always gets surrounded by somebody all the time and is never lonely and is "Oh-so-popular". Or... Maybe I'm just being over-sensitive? Oh well, I'm not sure but I seriously dun think I am...
Anyhow, if you think you are IT, dun bother to ask me. I will NOT tell you. I've chosen to use IT for 2 reasons: firstly is to hide the gender of the person (obviously), and secondly, is that I feel that this person is really quite indespicable, and so IT might be more appropriate... Just like an inhuman animal. Sorry if I sound very harsh. After all these years, I've learnt to protect myself and I will never let people use me as their stepping stones anymore. Period.
posted by LKY @ 3:25 pm
1 Comments:
so wierd that im leaving a comment when i'm supposed to blog..haha..but it's quite cool that this is kel's blog too so i shall leave it as it is and hear or read bout him instead.=)
"IT" heh..wonder wonder...
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